THE REASON

I KNOW I SAID IN A PREVIOUS POST THAT PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET CAN BE SO CRUEL LIE AND AND EVEN PRETEND FEELINGS THEY DONT FEEL FOR YOU BE IT FOR MONEY OR WHATEVER. BUT REALITY IS NET OR REAL LIFE THESE PEOPLE ARE EVERYWHERE. I LOCKED MYSELF INTO THIS WORLD TO AVOID THE OUTSIDE WORLD BECAUSE OF ALL THE PAIN.AND FOUND MORE HERE. I GUESS I FIGURE IF I CLOSE MYSELF OFF FROM MEETING ANYMORE PEOPLE HERE ILL BE OKAY AND I WONT HURT ANYMORE OR BE HURT. MAYBE ONE DAY ILL WRITE A BOOK WHO KNOWS. BUT RIGHT NOW IM JUST NOT IN A HAPPY WAY HOPING FOR THE BEST AND EXPECTING THE WORSE, I DONT WANT TO LOVE ANYMORE BECAUSE WHAT I LOVE NEVER IS REAL HERE OR IN REAL LIFE